“Self–worth is an internal state of being that comes from self-understanding, self-love, and self-acceptance. It is a state that is somewhat timeless and unchanging because it is a measure of how you value and regard yourself despite what others may say and/or despite unfavorable circumstances.” IQMatrix – Self-Worth
Yes, I am on Strive with THE Sir Richard Branson, THE Simon Sinek, and THE Sara Blakey. I genuinely feel like I can call them my friends too. They are thoughtful, kind, generous, fun loving and of course adventurous. I had an incredible talk with my new friend Morton the Philosopher last night, we talked for well over an hour….after our talk, I felt lighter inside. I went to bed and woke up refreshed…something had happened inside of me. I have been carrying around so much hurt, stress, frustration and pain inside that I had started to lose my self-love, self-respect and self-worth. It wasn’t gone, just buried some. Looking at people like Simon, Sara and Richard…they KNOW who they are, they have so much self-worth for themselves. They aren’t trying to prove anything or be someone other than who they are, because they KNOW who they are. THIS trip is rocking my world in such a good way. I have been burying parts of April that has put me in a state of Surviving instead of Thriving. I didn’t realize I was doing this until this trip. Every single person on this trip, I swear was put here for ME! Every conversation, every smile, every tear, every exercise. I am not different than anyone here, I am Brave, I am Beautiful, I am Powerful, I am Kind, I am Loved.
Every night I put my kids to bed and have them repeat after me. “I am Brave, I am Powerful, I am Strong, I am Beautiful/Handsome, I am Bold, I am Creative, I am Smart, I am Loved, I am Kind, I am a Child of God.” Who knew that I would start believing that again for myself.
We wake up early and hit the road on our Bikes. We have a half day Bike Ride then a half day Hike before camp.
We celebrate and hug having survived the Mountain Biking portion. My wounded self was VERY happy to be done with this part 🙂 . It’s amazing what you can do when you surround yourself with like minded people!!!
We get to a hotel to change over to our hiking clothes and pack up our bags. I was SO THANKFUL to have internet and be able to call the babies…. Sadly, I didn’t connect with them so I sent them a video…..Richard sends them lots of kisses too in the video 🙂
I will stop here for now……I’m thankful to have this unlocking of April beginning to feel love again, beginning to love again…. beginning to see that I am worth it, I am valuable. I have put the oxygen mask on, I am drinking lemonade and I am smiling from within…hope you are too.. xoxo