Simon Sinek spoke to us last night about the finite game vs the infinite game…if you want to listen I will post video of what I recorded. What stood out to me was when he was telling us about how he had the opportunity to speak at both Microsoft’s summit and then Apple’s. At the Microsoft summit, he said 70% of the leadership was talking about how they were going to beat their competition-Apple, while at the Apple summit, 100% of the executive leadership was talking about how to improve and change education. One was playing a finite game….a game on how to win, while the other was playing an infinite game – how to evolve and grow.
Soooo, yeah here I am again doing this crazy adventure… why??? I guess I always want to be growing, changing, pushing myself. It’s so easy to roll over and play dead…especially when life throws you lemons, hurts, pains, hick ups, anxiety etc… However, I want to be the girl that makes lemonade and creates a sweeter life, a sweeter experience and sweeter atmosphere. AND, I want to surround myself with like-minded people. Suffice it to say, day two didn’t disappoint.
The roads were rough terrain, lots of sand, dirt and rocks…. lots of people falling however not getting hurt to bad, just getting knocked off their bike. My friend Susie ended up wiping out pretty bad, a few of us stayed to help her. Once she was in good hands, Noah and I carried on. Noah asked me how I wiped out last year, I told him the story and I kid you not within 2 minutes after the story was over I WIPED OUT HARD 😦 ugh….the exact same way as last year.
I was hurting but trying to suck it up…
After a break at the rest stop, my new friends encouraging and helping me….I got back up on the bike and kept on keeping on. We hit a mountain that we needed to climb in order to get to lunch. I was tired, hot and knew I needed mental help to get up it. Brendan is the life of the party, he’s funny, witty, entertaining, smart and athletic. I find Brendan and ask him to ride with me to get me to the top…between him telling me silly stories, spelling out Mississippi, singing supercalifragistic…WE DID IT!!!!!! I can’t tell you guys enough how important it is to surround yourself with the RIGHT people. We weren’t made to do life alone. I don’t like asking for help, trust me…. BUT I find when I do, I actually gain more self-worth. Sounds cliché and backwards but it’s not. Brendan helping me and getting me up that mountain…. gave me confidence and self-worth helping me realize I am strong, I am brave, I am powerful!!!! Was I hurting- yes, did I want to quit -yes, did I get up that mountain -yes!!!
We stop for lunch and put our feet up.
This is where the interesting twist comes…..at the end of lunch I get offered the opportunity to stay back because of my swollen leg and limp….IMMEDIATELY everything inside of me is screaming “no way, are you crazy, there is no quitting!!!!” But then all of the sudden this small voice inside of me said “April it’s okay”. This was a foreign voice….I am a typical alpha female that is woman and hear me roar….but something inside of me said “stop, rest, heal”….stop fighting so hard and be still. I sat in silence and cried a little bit (this has been much of my life this past year honestly) ….but “I feel like I’m quitting, I feel like I’m a failure, I feel like I’m letting everyone else down…..”
I gave in and stayed back. I wasn’t the only one so the company was nice.
I realized the “talk track” that was playing in my head….remember Sara Blakely taught me this phrase yesterday…. to think I’m a quitter, failure, letting others down… Ahhhhh “stop April stop”. It’s not true!!! I was choosing to put my oxygen mask on because my body needed it and I needed it and it was okay.
I didn’t expect to fall, I didn’t expect my leg to hurt, I definitely didn’t expect to sit out the last few hours of the day…. but it’s okay. I made “lemonade” and had sweet sweet conversations with new friends, quiet peaceful time with myself, and gave my body a break to heal and recover so I could finish the week.
I’m playing this game of life not to win but to evolve….be ever evolving, growing, changing, improving and giving back…..today I evolved and for that I am grateful. I will choose to play the infinite game and not just the finite game, hope you are too.